idk

I dont know why life has decided to be so hard but to be honest its all my fault if i had been better, if i wouldnt have been scared, just been a man and done what i know i should have life would be so much better alot easier i wouldnt hate some people i make it look like i like and i wouldnt have to lie about who i hate and who i like and things would be a hell of alot better. well for me anyways idk how they would have been for other people so i geuss its better this way. better to have one person depressed than to have alot of people depressed although we dont know what would have happend if i would have done what i know i should have life might be alot better for people and for that i am sorry not only to myself but to everyone for not being able to see what life would have been like.